Looking through the Crystal Ball

How I'd like to see my future unfold

• Grow old together with the Lord & Master
• Be able to excite each other - physically, intellectually & emotionally
• See my kids grow up happy & confident to take on the world - much like I was (ahem!)
• Be healthy & financially independent
• Be able to read books, watch plays, travel & explore the world
• Be able to support my kids - not financially but definitely emotionally
• Have good friends to spend an uncomplicated evening with- don't need too many; but need good ones
• Be able to maintain the closeness I share with my brothers

Too much to ask for? Should I have said healthy, wealthy & wise?

Hmmm, I don't know; but I think not!

Trouble Ahead

Going through turmoil in my life

I can see a road sign - Trouble ahead. Take care.

I know strife is good for you. I know it builds character

I know we look at strife as a way when God is testing you.

My one submission to God.

My character is built enough.

Stop all this testing.

Let me see something positive. Soon

Please!

Books are the bane of my life

Books are the bane of my life

Books don't let me sleep

Books dont let me play

I burn the food, I allow the milk to overflow

I don't want to talk to my husband

or the kids

or the neighbours

I don't want to walk

or run or exercise

I don't make my bed

I don't sleep

I am late for work

I dont pick up calls

I don't want to cuddle

I don't care if you've eaten or not

or if you want something to drink.

Books are why my son ignores me

and my husband too

They tell me go away & not appear

till they have finished their reading

They don't want to chat

or go out & play

or tell me what they did all day

Books make me aware

Books make me wonder

Books make me think, think thoughts sometimes I'd much rather not think

Books make me yearn to have more, more & some more

When I don't have books

I read brochures

I read menus

I read recipes

Why, I even found myself reading the fineprint

Tell me again why books are good for you?

Books are the bane of my life.

Time...

...for another review of my life.

Do you have a job?

Yes

Does it pay ?

Yes :)

Do you have a family you care for ?

Yes

Do you struggle with your kids ?

YES !!!

Do you struggle with your husband ?

Don't you?

Do you struggle with the maid ?

Are you nuts? What if she decides to leave me?

Can you cook?

Yes!

Do people eat what you cook?

Ye--es! Most of the time

Do you read?

Yes. Mostly trash lately.

Do you travel?

Not as much as I'd like to

Do you have enough money?

No!!

Enough fame?

No ! damn! damn! damn!

Do you have enough to do what you want to do?

Yes :P

Are you content with life?

Yes I am...

CEO spake

My 3. 5 year old CEO said to me this morning, and I repeat it verbatim -

Do you think you think you can drive me to school today. I can't drive yet.


I'm still smiling

Surprise

I leave work on time.
I get caught in a traffic jam. I am swearing - I want to get home soon.
And I come to the reason for the traffic jam.
Its a snake - at least 2 meters long and 10-12" thick.
It isn't moving. Just lying there. Looks dead.
But no one is taking a chance. No one wants to run it over. I don't blame them. I too drive around it very carefully, hoping something will cause me to stop there so that I can take a picture. Nothing does & I'm forced to drive away.
But my irritation has disappeared, only to be replaced by wonder.
What a majestic creature it was.
How did it land up on a crowded road in the evening ?
Will I ever see a sight like this again in my life ?

Its 8:45 pm and I'm still at work
Annoyed.
Mad.
Irritated.

Not because I have work to finish; but because my work depends on others and they
- start after work after 1100 am
- waste time until lunch on gmail/ facebook / stupid discussions
- take 2 hour lunches
- start being productive only at 3:00pm

How the heck am I to finish up at 5:00 or 6:00 pm?

Did I finish?

yes !! I managed to do all I sought out to do over the weekend.
:)
:)
:)

Plans for the weekend

• take kids for a Chinese New Year Lion Dance before the shows stop playing
  
• take husband out for dinner - tomorrow's the 10th anniversary of the day we were engaged
• buy clothes
• buy vegetables and groceries
• sleep, time permitting
• attend the dance class after a break of almost 2 months
• take Prof to his baseball class
  

God! I almost don't want the weekend. Weekdays are so much easier.

Thank You

Quality of time that I spend with my kids has improved though the amount of time I spend with them has dramatically gone down.
I find myself cuddling them a little more; being a little more patient and screaming a lot lesser.
I like the fact that m boys run to give me a hug and a cuddle as soon as I'm back from work; or that they wait for me when I am back late.

They tell me they want time from me; and when I make the time to read a book or to tell a story or just cuddle before I tuck them in bed; they appreciate it

I'm so lucky... I enjoy the work I'm doing; and everyone in the family is coping well :)